Alignment with who I am

I'm so grateful and honored for all of you who follow me along here. For everyone of you who came on this journey to finding our inner self. To value who we are. To see our beauty. I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart.
 You where there, interested in my words and showing up in form of comments and beautiful emails over the years.

There was a lot up and down, like in the life of everyone.

Finally I feel arrived in who I am. It was a lot of process, a lot of fears to overcome, a lot of looking close and diving deep. My way transformed from confused walking forward in the fog to clarity and walking straight to my goals.
And I want it to be for all of us like this. I want to help you find the clarity you carve and share what I learned along the way.

 I'm overflowing with ideas I'm ready to birth into our life. Time as a mother flews by so fast and I just had to organize my life, since my little girl goes to kindergarten last fall.

A new project is in the making, you can have little peek inside at White Bambi and I'm happy to hear what you think about it.
Aurum Lux just didn't felt who I really am, I tried to please the mainstream instead of focusing on my strengths. It just was to outside oriented.
I will build my photography brand for the future under the name of aurum lux, since this name is latin and means golden light, it really fits perfectly for a photography activity. I am happy to explore in what directions I will grow and find my way to catch the golden light for others and not only for me and my family.
There is more to come, the roots of lots of ideas are growing strong. I'm so happy to have found my way and belonging.

Thank you all for coming along with me. I honor everyone of you beautiful souls out there and love to come over to all of your blogs and read about the life of all of you.

Alignment with who I am

Simply Christmas

It is calm here on my blog.
Behind the scenes we just enjoy christmas, but just have a look in the video what we are up to.

SIMPLY CHRISTMAS

Simply Christmas

To this Day

To This Day from To This Day on Vimeo.

Just some more inspiration, since this video touched me, I love to share it.
Not a lot of words from me, this days.
I work behind the curtains. Still doing the works for the roots of my new idea.
Building a design business. Helping others to express themselves with colors and an unique style.


We all have to believe in ourselves!
Over and over again.

To this Day

To this Day

Being Quiet is okay

I love the way Susan Cain helps introverts to be how they are and takes away the pressure fitting in the social norm.

In a gently way, you can shake the world.

Ghandi

Being Quiet is okay

New Start

Since some time, I just felt that I had grown out of signora aurora.
I needed a break.
Time to define where I want to go and what I want to share.
Selflove is still my foundation and it is what helps me grow my roots at this new project I launch. It is the base for everything I do.
Everything we do. Because if we do not give the value to our offers and gifts we have to share, nobody will find and see them. We have to be confident in our sharings. We have to be confident and comfortable with who we are.

Signora aurora is my personal blog, I will still be here, for some personal ramblings. For some deeper thaugths and it feels still like my creative alter ego.
The part of me that is still a little girl, with all it's curiosity. This part I will take near my heart for my life long, but there is another part of me that blooms this days.

The upgrown girl.
I defined myself as this little girl and had to take a big jump, when I first became a mother. I never really felt upgrown, until know.
I'm just so ready to take my life in my own hands. To shine and be who I am. To be confident in my skin. To make mistakes and apologize for them.
To grow.

So, here it is, my new project. I just decided to go along with german over there. It feels right this time and since there are so much languages in my life. I want to be able to conect local, to meet people in real life and to grow a beautiful community around. I offer some design and stylefinding work. If you are interested, but don't speak german, just send me an email. I'm happy to hear from you!

P.S. : I just put Aurum Lux on the back, this project isn't ready to be birthed into the world, which doesn't mean I lost my path. Actually I found it and know it better then ever before. Sometimes we have to see what isn't a good fit to find what we want and fits.

For more to know and come, visit me at White Bambi.

New Start

Blue and gold

Most of the time the details make the difference.

I really like basic clothes, without prints and in plain color, this is how I feel most comfortable and they work best to combine in my warderobe. 

The problem with them can be, that we could feel boring and not special in any way. So I always think up on little things to add textures and make me feel special. 

This time I found a simple cardigan I like and changed the plain blue buttons against some golden ones I bought at the fleamarket and in no time I have a very special and unique piece for my warderobe.

Blue and gold

Take action

I just lost myself in everyday struggles. I wanted to stay authentic and didn't want to post my moaning.
I felt my life to be boring. Maybe because we just made this big move to go to life from italy back to switzerland. I overcame the fear and felt brave, and there it pushed me back in the face.
There was no challenge coming ahead of me. I felt my blog to become a egoistic nook where I strip my soul down. I felt boredom.

I searched in blindness. Unaware.



Here I'm back.
Feeling and nuturing my roots. Knowing the direction I want to go. Ready to share again and ready to enjoy life and it's little and big adventures.

I dream to work as a photographer. My mission is all about making fall in love real humans with themself. To shoot the twinkle in their eyes. To catch the soul and energy they carry with them. To just go deep and show them their beauty in an image of themself.

A strong business asks for a solid foundation.
I'm writing a guide to selflove. I will make this knowledge the roots of my business. I feel that they have to be strong. No wind will blow them down. No storm can carry them away. Building authentic work that comes from the inside of me rather then copy what is a trend right now.

Take action

Birthday is a happy day!

My little girl became 4 years old last thursday!
Like I already said, it wasn't easy to gift her something, she has nearly no wishes and loves mostly to play with her playmobils figurine. They are a all time favourite. She is also a very good mummy to her doll and loves to make art and paint.
She is a little princess and I made her a pink tutu she loves to wear. They are very easy to make and you find tutorials all over the internet. My favourite was this here, from treasures for tots.
We ended up giving her some playmobil cows and things out of the farmlife, since we life here we see all over cows, even if we look out of our kitchen window we see inside the farm across the street and can see the cows eating in there. Some clothes, play dough and little things to make art, like new pens and glitter pens and a coloring book.

We discovered some days before her big day, that the circus will be in the city at her birthday and it felt right that she will go there as her big birthday present. Even if her daddy had to work and her big sister went to the circus with her school class, Her and I had a beautiful afternoon, she rode a pony, we've seen the big elephants from very near and ate icecream in the break. It was a beautifull afternoon and party with the hole family in the evening.

Birthday is a happy day!

Daily life

Living in a home full of white and light helps me fill up my energy tank

Our bedroom // A little metal tin to put inside my glitter

In love with selfmade honeycomb balls // Light pink makes everything better

Circus for birthday is perfect // Little white and yellow striped gifts 

 Our place to eat // My best friend

Chocolate cake and a bike for my beloved husbands birthday // Little birthday princess

Honeycomb ball love // Me

 Lake in Vevey (Switzerland) // Perfect pastell colors

Cozy birthday teepee // Elephant love

Daily life

Expand my purpose and daily struggles

I think we all need a purpose.

We need to know that we are useful and important. We want to solve problems and evolve.

If we loose sight of this problems, we sometimes just loose sight of our way we want to go and we don´t see anymore the sense in things, that once helped us, like writing something on my blog or staying healthy and skinny. I lost control and ate again whatever I craved for, without limits, just to fulfill my emptiness. I just wasn´t able to stop eating some chocolate or sweets, luckily I didn´t gained lots of weight back, but I just do not feel healthy and comfortable in my body. 

I bought myself some running shoes and want to go swim in the evening, but I just procrastinate it every day.

I found myself this days stuck with little problems and the took away all my energy. I found myself back in old patterns. I wanted to buy things and this longings stopped my real creative flow. I made myself believe that I can´t blog about my home, until there aren´t all this little details I don´t like yet, fixed. I will not be able to take photos, without buying a new rug or a chandelier for our kitchen. I just stuck with material things and constructed some serious problems in my head. I gave them so much energy, until there wasn´t any space left over for creative projects and until I constructed a real problem out of the nothing.

We made up our perfect little family and have a lovely home.

It just seemed that there wasn´t anymore anything to improve. I know I will learn to speak french, it needs only some time and practice. 

My big girl has a perfect spot in school and they care very well for her, she is happy to go every day. My little girl sleeps in her own bed and doesn´t need her mummy us much anymore as when she was a baby. 

There where I, wrapped in some loneliness and overwhelmed with some freedom I have won again, moving back to this country. After the first fear of the new, came faster as I could prepare, some issues with not being needed and not being useful. 

So in my unconscious I just constructed something to solve and parts to improve, which made me at the same time busy and very unhappy. I ran around, trying to buy things for our home, trying to find things to start crafting again, to start sewing again and it seemed, even to myself, that I´m yet so busy, I don´t have time to blog, make photos, craft or only installing my sewing machine. I grew my wishlist rapidly and tried to occupy my head.

I resisted buying lots of stuff, but the few things I bought, made me feel guilty and a looser. I felt to be sick, sick of longing and wanting things. Sick of wanting more, even if I already have everything and I couldn´t figure out where this came from. I only new it was there, from the morning until the evening there where things I long for in my head and I avoided to look close by. 

It is so painful to see your weak points. It just hurts to admit that you yet not have overcome this deep longing for material things. I just felt shame to be like this. I just did not want to be this nasty and disgusting. We have and own everything and there are so much people around the world that even don´t know if and when the would eat for next and I just think all day long about buying luxury things. 

I even struggled that my husband could love me like this. I thought if he would see this true side of mine, it would disgust him just like me. 

So I tried to hide it. I putted it on the other side of the door and closed this door, but this made it grow even more. It became always bigger and my fear grew together with it.

So I try once again to change. I try to open this door and face it. I try to accept this part of me instead of deny it. Even my husband accept this part of me and loves me for who I am.

So I face it. Here in front of all of you that come along with me on this adventure to knowing ourselves.

Full of braveness and afraid at the same time. 

Here I am.

Letting go of problems I constructed out of the boredom.

Seeking new adventures. Giving to my mind new exercises to grow. Finding a way to share my deep love with the topic of selflove. Writing an ecourse. Slowly and study. Built from ground up and weaving in all the experiences I gathered up over the years.

Using my time in a constructive and positive way and give the space to the things in my life that let me grow and really feel better, not the things that give me a energy kick for a short instant.

Expand my purpose and daily struggles